confounded
by the weight of being
the constant nag and tug
at my skeleton
laced at the collar
to worlds
worlds with
methods
requirements
as does this one
the one I met you in
the one you comprehend
there is no separating one from the other
in my experience
your worlds
so loud to me
plowing through
from the other side
squealing out expectations
judgments
as a result
apprehensive in what my involvement means
apprehensive in what my detachment means
I am not alone in this
yet I feel so helpless
seeing these worlds
so small within
melding with current situation
the how
the why
the ignorance
and yet
the beauty of it all
you elucidate my deepest apprehension
in jest
there is a place you hold
urging me to regress
it is cold and self serving
it does not realize
there are two
in this relating
is my perception accurate
will you hold on to this
simply because I do all
and you
contented by my eagerness to please
enough to not give a second thought to my circumstance
how do I convey the things you would rather not discuss
the things I've been held from discussing
am I strong enough
to walk through
this convoluted mine field
of normative means
somehow
keeping it's daily challenges
manageable
my hesitation simply means
you are unaware of this plight
it is something you must recognize
now
though because you do not
i simply haven't the will
or energy
to make this necessity known
or understood
the days will tell
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