imbroglio

emergence of the day is hazed in suggestions of contentment

eliciting a minute crawl back into framed perception

questioning the veracity of the current nonchalance

half a revolution prior

guzzling the means to encompass the paltry clicks and ticks in competence

occupying the lofty realm of this figment

memory of a memory

vague resolve buoyant in the immediate and vaporous language of intemperance

a constant toothless gnawing 

the liquid ceremony I employ to drown

this solicitous nature which pulses

as cascading crimson disengaging gashed pathways

surreptitiously cauterized by the chimera of conversance

evident the antithesis ensues

scabs form only to be cracked and snagged by the fabric of these illusions

a hodgepodge of wants and actualities

rather the perceptions thereof

crafting disheveled communique

for the sights of the skeptics

possibly never to gather the desperation of this conveyance

to feel any sort of acknowledgement

in days left for want

marinating in the protracted conflicts of comprehension

aching to break the self-inflicted ennui

of not being tempted by anyone or anything but the drowning

what fear comes of speaking plainly

the loss of an enigma I craved to my core

the exact puzzle I have always coveted

my ever encompassing want incarnate

the devil’s advocate

the Cheshire Cat

the lost chess piece which renders the set incomplete

now to level it off

admitting it may all be hyperbolic

though the more I shared the hours

the more I craved

bare raw humanity

so fragile

smothered in the likeness of our current complacence

buried by the stories one tells oneself to get by

without letting itself breathe in the light of time

in the light of shared experience

itself beckoning to be pulled into the warmth of understanding

to be worn and appreciated even through the energies of the obtuse 

deluded and belligerent

until it no longer is

letting go of the only perceived option

which was believed is control

leading to moments of

The Green

grey eyes

frantically fearful of the unknown

where the maladroit grope for power 

sabotaging the creeping manuevers of unfathomable architecture 

you so desperately desire to navigate